I just re-discovered my 3x blogs. Why do I have 3x blogs what could I possibly have to say?! Well in the four years since I've been gone a lot has happened. I moved to Texas! (I'm really not that excited about it!) I thought it was a good move or maybe I never did. I thought it would make everyone happy and I wanted everyone happy even if it meant I wasn't but the funny thing is I thought I could be happy anywhere. Turns out I can't, I never really could be happy anywhere to tell the truth. Even in the place where I thought all my dreams were (NY) I wasn't truly happy. Depression follows me around like a lost puppy. Even if I try not to feed it, it lives inside of me waiting for that moment it can sneak in and try to swallow me whole. (geesh! that's totally fucked up!)

Anyway! I don't know if I'm going to broadcast this or if I'll just write my sad crap and let anyone come across it. I don't really think I have followers!

I'll just put this out in the universe!